Wow! Just Wow!

Have you ever had an experience where Heavenly Father sent you a message? A personal, finger pointing at you "this is for you, so pay attention," message?

Well, that happened today. It happened to me and another member of my family today at church and there is no question--I mean ZERO question--that Heavenly Father was speaking to us.

I was angry today. Really upset. The kind of upset where I spent most of the night awake, plotting how I was going to vent my anger at the right person (people). I'm not going to go into details about what happened because it was so hurtful and I can't voice it, even with my blog voice. But trust me when I say the anger and the hurt we felt was justified and the behavior that caused that anger and hurt was completely unnecessary, unwarranted and mean-spirited.

This morning was difficult. I still felt protective and upset. I don't take it well when those I love suffer at the hands of other people.

Sacrament meeting was good--a couple of good talks and a nice musical number. But during church, I still thought about how I was going to make my anger known to the right people, how I would make them understand how awful they had behaved. And I wasn't the only one. The other member of my family was hurting--the kind of hurt that manifests itself in anger. Except for every once in awhile, when the hurt overcomes the anger, and a lip quivers or tears fill the corners of one's eyes. And when I saw that happen several times, my own anger grew.

And then the meeting was ending and the bishop leaned over to the one who was conducting and whispered something. And then the bishop stood and said, "I know the meeting needs to end when the meeting should end. But I also know that sometimes something needs to be said and I don't know why, but today, for some reason, I'm supposed to share this with you." And then he shared Doctrine and Covenants 64: 9-11:

Wherefore, I say unto you, that ye ought to aforgive one another; for he that bforgiveth not his brother his trespasses standeth condemned before the Lord; for there remaineth in him the greater sin.
 10 I, the Lord, will aforgive whom I will forgive, but of you it is required to bforgive all men.
 11 And ye ought to say in your hearts—let God ajudge between me and thee, and breward thee according to thy cdeeds.
And we were stunned. We looked at each other and cried. And then we knew that Heavenly Father didn't want us to carry the greater sin because of our anger. He wanted us to forgive so that there wouldn't be in us the greater sin.
And we knew that Heavenly Father had sent us a clear message. And because of that, we knew he loves us.

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missy said...

I'm sorry for your hurt. I'm happy for your healing. :) Personal revelation, however it is given, is a beautiful thing!

Anonymous said...

WOW! JUST WOW! How very blessed you are to have a Bishop so in tune with the spirit. I am sure this experience helped with your healing process. You know that when you all hurt, I hurt. Love you all so much. My prayers are with you. LMH

Misty Moncur said...

Thanks for sharing that.

Lolawid said...

Isn't it great when we get reminders that we are known and loved! Shortly after reading this post, I got a phone call that reminded me! Thanks so much for sharing! Hope today is going better for you.

Leslie said...

it is so amazing when the presence of the Lord is so clear cut in our lives.
the ability to forgive others is a benefit that comes through the power of the atonement... i have learned that over and over in my life and each time it happens, i am truly amazed by it again and again. the Savior can take any hurt, anger, or pain from us.
we are so blessed.

love you all.

Stephanie said...

Thanks for sharing that. Sometimes we all just need a little reminder of how aware our Heavenly Father is of us.

williamswildbunch said...

wow! Thanks for sharing that amazing story. It's funny how the lord has all theses little ways of letting us know How much he cares and is aware of each of us every single day. I had a similar experience when I was last set apart for a calling that I was not excited for. It was amazing how much the member of the bishopric knew about my inner feelings and how this came out in this personal blessing that was just for me. Thank you for sharing. I have been venting some small anger all day just from getting involved in a political discussion. I really shouldn't do that. It always causes me to vent anger. So I guess in a much smaller way I needed to read your post tonight.
You are awesome Karey! Keep up the good writing.