I Worry...

I like to think I'm calm and rational when it comes to worrying. I have some relatives who are professional worriers and I don't come close to expending the energy and time that they do worrying about all the worryable things.

But lately, I've had my own list of worries that are very real to me. Some are big and some are small. Some are even silly when I think about them, but lately they've been receiving too much of my attention, so in the interest of getting them off my chest, and hopefully putting them to rest, here we go.

I worry about Bruce. He's on the other side of the world and you might think I worry about his safety so far from home, after all, he's been hit by cars (yes, more than one), had a serious bike wreck and was sick for a month. Of course those are concerns, but I don't worry much about those things. I worry about who he's going to marry. What if he marries a high-maintenance girl? What if he marries a selfish girl? I worry about this for both of my boys.

What if my girls marry guys who aren't very kind? What if they're dealing with issues that will make them not value my girls the way they should?

I worry about Veronica moving out and going to college. Not because I think she can't handle it because I know she can. I'm worried about me missing her. I'm wishing I could have had eleven children like my mom did. That way, two of my children could move out and I'd still have nine left at home. I'm not ready for half my children to be out on their own. 

I worry that I'm not going to make my self-imposed deadline to have my next two books ready for publication. What if I was too ambitious when I set my goal? Yet I don't want to revise my goal because I want to reach it.

I worry that the book I want to secure an agent for, isn't going to attract a good agent. I worry that if an agent wants the book, I'll be so excited to have an agent that maybe I won't make a good decision about whether or not they're the right agent for the job. How will I know? 

I worry about this coming election. I worry about the debt burden being left for my children. It seems to me that the America that I want to live in is disappearing and I'm hoping that this election will steer us closer to the America I long for.

I worry that the person who told me that nuts and chocolate cause kidney stones is right. What if it's true and I can't completely give up those two things. 

What do you worry about?