I Wonder...

Bruce Daniel Higginson
February 16, 1969 - April 26, 1985

I wonder if he'd live close enough that we'd see him often.
I wonder if his wife would have been pretty and sweet.
I wonder how many children he'd have.
I wonder if his freckles would have faded away.
I wonder if he'd have struggled with his weight.
I wonder if he'd have hair like some brothers or be bald like others.
I wonder if his garage would be in perfect order like his bedroom
and drawers always were.
I wonder if he'd still hate peas.
I wonder what career he'd have chosen.
I wonder if he'd be wealthy or if he'd struggle financially.
I wonder how opinionated he'd be.
I wonder if he'd be politically active or just a reliable voter.
I wonder where he'd have served his mission.
I wonder if his children would have his freckles or his mouth.
I wonder if he'd still love sports.
I wonder if we'd still stick up for each other.

I don't wonder where he is or if I'll see him again.
I don't wonder if he knows how much we love him and miss him.

I love you, Bruce. Even after all this time, you are still missed.


Rebecca Talley said...

What a sweet tribute. I'm sorry for your loss.

Marie Higgins said...

How sweet! But you're so right. We don't need to wonder where he is. We KNOW. And he does KNOW how much you love him.

My grandmother's funeral was last Monday. It was her time to go, that I have no doubt. But it was still hard. I think it was hard only because I know she'll be with my grandpa (her husband) and she'll see my dad there. I can't wait to see them again and I miss them all very much.

I don't know what I would do if we didn't have this knowledge.

Mary L Walling said...

My mother passed away when I was 28 and she left behind a 14 year old son and 16 year old daughter. It was hard on all of us, but especially them and my dad. There is not a day goes by that I don't think of her, but know that I will see her again and days that I feel her presence with me. Aren't we lucky to know that we will all be together again?

Alison said...

Very sweet Karey.

He is serving his mission in heaven...the best mission call ever.

My love to you!


LL said...

love this post....so touching.

Leslie said...

he is SOOOOOOOOOO missed.

i love that aaron jr is getting to know him by hearing about him.

Lizzy said...

Well said, my sweet. I think of him often.

Kelly Massman said...

What a sweet post. Ironically, we lost our 15 yr old nephew on this day (Feb 16, 2011). I'm just now getting around to all of my blogs...